What happens to a girl who learns that disappearing is safer than being seen?
And what does it cost the woman who spends 40 years finding her way back?
Butterfly Dust is a memoir about the quiet violence of being unseen, by the people who were supposed to protect you, by the systems that failed you, and eventually, by yourself. It is also a story about what becomes possible when you finally stop disappearing.
This is not a recovery story. It is a reckoning.
No one burned the world down for me.
So I had to learn to do it myself.
Learning to trust myself after a lifetime of disappearing.
Some stories entertain.
Some stories remind us we are not alone.
You have lost yourself to generational trauma, motherhood, or perimenopause and you are not sure where you went.
You have spent your life making yourself smaller so others could feel bigger.
You are ready to give yourself permission: to speak, to choose, to leave, to take up space.
You want to read a story that makes you feel less alone in yours.
This book is for you if:
Butterfly Dust isn't a story about becoming someone new.
It's a story about coming home to the person who was there all along.
The Freedom to Be Seen
What You'll Walk Away With:
For women who have spent years caring for everyone else and are finally ready to listen to themselves.
Learning to
trust myself
after a lifetime of disappearing.
Writer · Speaker · Storyteller
A memoir of silence, survival, and taking up space.
For perimenopausal moms who are disappearing into their own lives.
Honest, unfiltered conversations about perimenopause, parenting, generational healing, and what it actually takes to come back to yourself.
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eye of the storm
Butterfly Dust is the story of a girl who learned that disappearing was safer than existing and the woman who spent the next forty years finding her way back.
I work with women who have spent years caring for everyone else and are finally ready to listen to themselves.
Using coaching, CBT tools, and real-world experience, I'll help you navigate change with more clarity, confidence, and self-trust.
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The work of coming back to yourself doesn't have to happen alone.
you already know this story.
You just haven't read your version of it yet.
If you've ever made yourself smaller
so someone else could feel bigger.
I’m Niki Brosnan.
Writer, speaker, coach, mother, and lifelong student of reinvention.
For years I helped everyone else find their way. Now I'm learning what happens when I stop disappearing and trust myself instead.
Butterfly Dust is my first memoir.
hello!
You have spent your life being everything to everyone
and have quietly lost track of yourself.
You are not broken. You are not too late. You are in the middle of something that has a name and there is a way through it that doesn't require you to disappear any further.
Want to follow my journey to publication?
Butterfly Dust has spent years finding its wings.
Join me for the final rewrites, agent submissions, rejection letters, unexpected wins, and everything that happens between finishing a manuscript and holding a book in your hands.
I'm sharing the entire journey in real time.
I'd love for you to be part of the journey.
I'm sharing it all!